Take the Dance with Uncertainty
Maximum Unknown, Maximum Trust ☀️🌊🏄♀️
17 work days in Canada taught me…
I love my life and the many facets that I’ve carved out on this journey. It’s also taken a lot to fall in love with this process & myself. I wouldn’t be here without each of you, truly, you’ve laughed or cried w me through some dark & bright chapters whether you know it or not.
The community that’s come into my life breathes life into me & reflects all the beauty I used to turn away from in myself, the things that I thought or were imprinted into me as flaky, flighty & to my detriment. I have never had such beautiful connections as here, especially alongside my best friends & practitoners within Solluna. I am so fucking proud to stand alongside the women I do in every single facet of this intricate life.
California Krystal is the creative feminine muse that frolics, dreams, magnetizes, that allows Ft McMurray Krystal to driveeeee the needle into action & be the visionary for innovative change. I’ve learned to love them both, and try not to let one drown the other yet I’m ready for a chapter of intertwining and integrating these two wildly different lives into one.
I’m not here to do it like anyone else. If I didn’t throw my life up in the air the last few years I would have stifled my life force, joy & potential… watering down what I was able to have access to. While I long for settling down and planting roots, I will not do it with or where it is not absolutely correct. I will not quiet the voice that says ‘just a little longer’ or ‘not quite right’ or ‘let’s explore over here.’ I’m waiting for the voice that says …. ‘THIS’ with certainty & proclamation.
I hope you wait for the pieces to fit and land in your life as an absolutely, certain knowing of correct fit.
I hope you never settle for the second guessed, back of the mind always will wonder about decisions, places, people.
I hope you never settle for those that almost see your potential, your light, your beauty.
I hope when the moon comes out & the shadows creep in you remember the level of fulfillment your soul came here to uncover & witness… and then I hope you go out into the throws of life and experience the beauty and joy that is on the other side of settling & questioning & detouring to joy.
Thank you for all you teach me, for all you lean into & for what you willingly digest & choose to contemplate on or off the table, I’m excited for what lies ahead on this fresh cycle paved from a year of decisive and correct moves that brought us to & through so much.
Coronado, let’s dance 💃🏼
